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2nd November,2005 11.00pm:

The demons rise up against me and I give in without a fight.

[Just got bounced off site with the message: 'Action no longer valid'. Had to log in again.
And I'm being beset by 'server failed to process' messages. Demons! I'm fed up and frustrated. I GIVE UP!!]



This morning, because I was making a fresh start and because I was supposed to meet Maxine for the 1st time at work, I pushed myself to get up out of the bed.... but my still undried single uniform shirt became my first disappointment of the day. Because of it I was forced to take another day from work.

The rest of the day would continue with the same trend, including stopping by the bar for a drink and thinking my gambling was under control but ending up with another tab after I had already paid an enormous one the day before. I had to journey to the plaza to withdraw money I had originally not wanted to touch. Indeed I could have taken the money from the 15000 I have, hidden away, for Ava but out of principle I didn"t think it proper to touch that money which must be available for her the instance she needs it.

After coming from the plaza with the exact cash I am told by Judy that the figure she gave me was only my gambling tab and not my liquor tab.


Then the one good incidence of the day occured. Daley who was there with me earlier, returned with the $1000 I had loaned him, and almost forgotten about, a few weeks ago.

Nonetheless midnight finds me depressed, and feeling empty and void of the Spirit.

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